That Kinda Morning....

It's 10am and I am still in my pajamas... Not because I am sick but because I am lazy at the moment... or this morning....

I worked last night fro 3-9pm and tonight from 3-8pm. I have become the "fill in night bitch" as me and my co-workers are calling my new position. I really do not like working nights anymore. I had done it for OH.... lets see fifteen years maybe. So when I climbed on bored at the hotel, eager and ready, I was blessed with all daytime shitf working . Selling retail in some great shops....(really it's retail, it's not as exciting as I just made it out to be). But lately in the past month or two I have been what I call banished to the Boutique, (the ladies dress shop..which is really not all that bad) but night time work. Okay that does suck. I have an opposite schedule of my husband and he hates it, BUT, i am not making any waves with this one...think about it... The way it works in the department is... IF you stand up for yourself, call out sick, make a suggestion or even just comment on something .. you are black listed. It happens all the time, each day and everyday to my co-workers. I see it and hear it. I have also heard a few negative comments about me from the blacklisters. I really could care less too. Because I have like what 7,8 weeks left before I am done and have my baby...so this is why I am not rocking the boat. No point. I was asked to work Christmas, I said sure, cause it will be the last Christmas I work. One of the blacklisters looked at me with a funny expression... I rubbed my belly and walked away..My life outside the hotel is far wore wonderful than my life INSIDE the hotel. Nothing is more important to me than my family... Not even selling the latest style of Trina Turk dresses......TRUTH be told.

Okay, the point of my story is this night time shit has me all off kilter. I have been on a set schedule with everything and have loved my life. Up early and get things done before work and home and get more things done. It works for me and Dan and Miles... So now I am tired in the morning. But I usually try to keep things the way they were before the night shift hit me again.

Today was different. The other night I has such shitty sleep. I have this pregnant thing going on and it comes with something called Restless Leg Syndrome. Can't stand it and keeps me awake. So not much sleep has been going on, plus all the other shit that is happening around me in my world....Dan's little old dad had a stroke and is in hospital...my husband is depressed with that one, I have to try to be the cheerleader, work, bake a baby, get ready for a baby, pay bills, keep up with he shopping and cooking along with... plan a Christmas with my family. DO the Christmas shopping, have an anniversary, get some sex in there somewhere, take care of the dog, wonder how much it will cost to have my computer fixed and more... You know... the basic holiday shit.

I did however get good sleep last night but woke up to pouring rain. FINE with me. It was pissing rain, coming down like Niagara falls out of the side of the gutters. Sheets, it was great. I watched it from the bed. Miles took his time getting on top of the bed this morning like he does each day....I put a movie in that a friend lent me and laid there listening to the rain and watching a cute movie. I was so happy. Every so often I would stretch my legs and feel the soreness in my feet form being on them so much at work. I would rollover and get in a comfy position and take a deep breath and relax. I would feel my son move inside me. I would scratch Miles' belly and find happiness. The rain kept us in and groggy. It was great. Just cooked and egg and now I am sharing this with you.....

It may sound funny to you since I spent so much time in bed with my chest cold, but there was no relaxing there. When I am on the mend from something I am not relaxing....Please note I am not one to relax period. To much to do and not enough time to do it....Okay there really is... but there is always something else AND I am moving a bit slower these days since I am growing. It's a concept, an idea that relaxing is good for you, it is good for you.. this idea, is healthy but it is not followed anymore by me with this morning as an exception. I have enjoyed the morning.

It will rain all day and most likely flood the streets, slow the traffic down and all will be a mess, but for the few hours I really only had to myself, it was perfect. It was that kinda morning....