So Now We Know....

Well, it's no secret anymore .....not that it ever was really...but I am having a baby. I am having it. I am the condo so I am saying "I" am having it. I will carry it and deliver it. Dan, he is what we call..."The Semper Fidelis" so he steps aside.
At the moment his job is to just do what he does and every so often make supper for me. But I have everything covered.
So far so good. It's all coming together . I am in my 14th week. OFFICIALLY in my 4th month. I have had NO morning sickness, just pure fatigue. Tired all the time. This may pass or it may not, but whatever comes out of this I am pretty excited....Dan is too. This whole thing was a true shock. We (I ) had no idea that I was pregnant. I was never sick...but for some reason God found us fitting to be parents and has given us this baby to raise. We don't know yet if it is a boy or a girl..we will find out in the middle of October. Dan wants a girl and I guess I can honestly say I would like one too, but I will be happy and completely into having a boy too...so whatever God wants for us...We are working on picking names... I would like to stick w/ family names, because they are easy and no one can complain about it..."you can't name a baby this or that " don't like hearing it. I would absolutely name my daughter Lhotse (one of my favorite names...after the Lhotse Face on Mount Everest..but no one would understand... if you TRULY know me you would understand.)
We are discussing how we want to raise the baby too....really working on understanding on what each other thinks about different things....I am NOT interested in being this child's friend...Not even until it's like 30...I am interested in being it's mother. I am not fond of parents who forget and give up on parenting and focus on friendship...you re asking for trouble down the road....
I had my parents to look back on and how they were with my sister and I. I had Molly and Brian and Curt and Becky and Ellen and Ron to show me beautiful marriages and wonderful child rearing.. I look back on those days and can clearly remember how they did it and can gleam from it all. This is My child. Dan and I. We will make up our mind on what to do. I could care less if you agree....I may not agree w/ how you do it, but I would never judge you on it...you do it your way and we'll do it our way.
It's the same w/ being pregnant. Everyone has all this stuff to tell you.... Do this, Do that, I had this, I did that...guess what. everyone is different. Each pregnancy is different. Even if you are having your second or third or fourth or first kid...it's never the same. This is all the beauty of it. I don't take to much advice. In fact I have stoped asking or even listening to some people. If I have a question I save it for the Doctor, or someone who has been in the SAME EXACT POSITION as me...40 and pregnant....I feel this way because I need to experience it. Not you, ME....I am the condo and have no control over my body now. I have given it over... like my life.
I gave it over, and you know what. It's all good. Giving it up and over and no control is way better, than fighting or fidgeting or wondering...I am letting this roll and am SOOOOO happy about being chosen for this child's condo... SO Now We Know....we know we can do this and we are good enough people to have this baby. Now we know....